AW CUTE!

Pink & Blue Mopeds (=
I saw them on the way to Orange County.

I DON'T THINK

that I'm over my head.



How awkward.
There's people actually reading my blog? LOL (=

ALRIGHT.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Hmm. Got me thinking.

Anyway, about my day. I woke up super early, at 9. Watched reruns of season 2 One Tree Hill. After, I went to eat with my family, and on the way there I saw the cutest thing! Picture of it later. We went to the Vietnamese market afterward and me and my mom went to Cerritos Mall. I sold an ad today! It was to this place called Irene's Acupuncture Clinic. place is dope yo! LOL just kidding.

This made my day.

: dude
: my borthers turtle
: ate my turtles poop -__-

PUZZLE.

I am like those 5000 piece puzzles. People just try to get the corners and then the border figured out, but then it takes too long to put together the inside that they give up. And not to mention the pieces that mysteriously go missing and become lost. But puzzles, can be figured out and put together. It just takes time (=

HOMEWORK
APUSH Outline chapter 13 DUE FRIDAY
APUSH Outline chapter 14 DUE FRIDAY
APUSH Essay DUE MONDAY
APUSH Charts DUE MONDAY?

RADIO KILLERRRR.

Hi. So today I went Ad selling. How is it that nobody wants to buy Ads? Oh well. I'm going to South Street Plaza & that one Asian plaza later. Crappy mood this morning. My babe's freaking cute & sweet <3 He made my day a little better (= I love you <3

MY HEART.

is beating a million miles per second.

that was a really close one. ><
phew.


Babe:
my mom found one of the notes you wrote me.
I somehow convinced her that it was really nothing.
lets stick to emails k?

LAKERS FTW.

#1 in the NBA baby!

NEXT TIME.

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SHOPPING.

Today was hella hectic! Mall at 8:00, sorry babe I was late. Anyways, I bought 2 pairs of jeans, gray & vintage wash, & sandals. I guess I wanted more, but I forgot what I wanted when I got there haha. It was fun walking around the mall with Jeffrey though (= I had fun. After, I had to go to academy, which was right in the middle of the day, but it was alright afterward. I ate yogurt land, and I went home & had fun trying on all my clothes (= My mom came home, we all went to South Coast Plaza. There was nothing there. I seriously think we spent more time looking for parking than actually shopping. After we went to The Lab because me and my brother wanted to go to Urban Outfitters. I bought a black Henley for $10 (: Pretty cheap! I ate pizza twice today.

THANKSGIVING

Happy Thanksgiving to all =) I'm thankful to be in the mindset I am in currently. I'm not stuck on things anymore. I feel great. I am thankful for all the people that have stuck around, and mostly, just my life. There's so many things to list down, but to shorten things up, I won't list them all.


Today I put my tank top on inside out & backwards. I'm a failure )=

NORMAL?!

CHRISTMAS TREE

Our Christmas tree this year sucks! ): I knew colorful lights would look ugly on our tree! Anyway I'm so relieved that it's a 4 day weekend! It feels like a Friday. Tomorrow I'm supposed to go eat with Angela and Harry (= and then after with Amy and Michael. It's going to be exciting? Probably not. Thanksgiving isn't ever that great, because the eating part is fun and what not, but after you eat, it's kind of like "what now..." heh. I'll update more about it tomorrow! Goodnight (=

IRRELEVANT

I think I've finally mastered the concept of using a spoon to eat noodles =)

RUN

4:00 AM
I woke up early and got ready to go to studio, which is why I was probably so dead today. I just needed to get some music on paper & whatnot. At school,my Trigonometry test was harder than I expected. )= I used a calculator on parts that I wasn't supposed to use it on, but it was an honest mistake. haha I was unaware of it until I looked around. Anyway, my AP Chemistry test was easier than expected (= It wasn't too difficult. I really dislike Yearbook at the moment. I don't know if it's just the stress of deadlines or if it's my partner. Maybe more of my partner. I don't mean to be bitchy and all, but when she was absent, I basically finished placing all of the pictures on the spread, and doing all the CYMK, 300 resolution, and what not. Now she's making me do the copy when she should be the one doing it, am I right? Ugh. I guess there's more important things to worry about, like my SATs, but I don't know. Anyway, today after school, I watched part of Fred Clause. Haha I didn't get to finish it, but I want to (= Anyhow,

HOMEWORK;
English On Dumpster Diving Questions 1,2,4
Opener Corrections
Homework and Notes Packet
Copy

I guess I'm basically refraining from doing my copy right now.

ALARMS

don't wake me up.



I feel a little lonely.
"I'm only strong on the surface,
not all the way through."

I WANT TO BE

a better person / daughter / sister / girlfriend / student / friend .



Most people don't know who they are.
That's why they lie.
They're afraid someone else will figure it out before they do.

FOUND THIS;

One end is logically informing you of all the facts and negative aspects, While the other end is quietly persuading you to have more faith. The logical and collected end seems to be winning and convincing, As if letting go is the best decision ever, While the quiet and pleading end continues to make you to look again no matter what, Because you know letting go will be a chance lost forever.

The facts are glaring and pessimistic, And you are fearful and worried. Your hope is tiny and yet persistent, Making you wonder if there could be another possibility. Most of the facts point out to a disappointing and gleam future, And yet a small part within you glows with the promise of a gem.

So you throw out all that is rotten without hesitation, Its not that easy because life has a way of challenging you and your beliefs, Posing you dilemmas and mysteries for you to deal with.

Do you listen you listen to the people and drop it believing that it is for the best? Nope. do you listen to your heart and hold on believing that it will turn out for the best? Definitely. Do you cave in to others’ opinions and beliefs? Never, Or do you cling to your own uncertainty and remain true to yourself? What if your logical end tells you to lose heart and let go now? Ill listen to my heart and Ill hold on!

Do you listen to the kind intentions of your friends, Thinking and agreeing with them that they know the best for you? Or do you shut up your deafening inner mind chatter, And search for that the answer that lies within your heart? You recall that people always seem to know what is best for you, And many times they proved themselves right. But what about being true to yourself and listening to your own heart, And finding out for yourself what works for you and what makes you tick?

Look carefully, It is not a tug of war of your heart as you first thought, It is a tug of war between your mind and your heart, Do not let yourself be fooled.

RELIEF

I can't wait until January because then SATs and first semester will be over and things might to back to normal in terms with my schedule and what not :) anyways I'll be able to go back to studio and work all day and all night like a slave =) & no, I'm not being sarcastic, I promise. Which reminds me, a new years coming around I'll find another time later to blog on that but anyways I can seriously say that things have changed. I'm not yet exactly sure whether its for the better or for the worse, but I know that I'm a completely different person that who I use to be. My situations and lifestyle have changed, and it actually really scares me to know how close I am to being actually independent and on my own.

HOMEWORK;
Annotate On Dumpster Driving, Lars Eighner
Trigonometry Homework #52 Review
APUSH Antebellum Period Chart
Print other APUSH Charts from Online
Study for Chemistry Chapter 12 Test

I ate spaghetti with a spoon today.
It's harder than it looks.

I feel like I am in my own little bubble because no one lets me in theirs and no one wants to be in mine. Why can't we all just pop our bubbles & be friends. wow i'm lame.

I know I tend to keep my distance. I don't show my feelings, I don't open up. It's my attempt to avoid getting hurt, like putting on bandaids before actually getting cut, which shows how stupid my thought process is.


I can't keep doing this, its bringing me down day by day. It's hard though, to be honest, not to be afraid.

now that i've fallen, what am i going to do?

i feel so stupid, lonely, and insecure..
like half the time i want to cry my eyes out.
I want to find something worth believing in.
I want to find something a hundred percent, real
it seems like everything has exceptions or loopholes
or something to counteract it.

So I'm in second period right now and I'm supposed to be doing my annotations and study quesions on learning to read by Malcolm x but I really can't concentrate. I seriously have attention defecit disorder or something haha. Anyways I miss him so much right now and I wish we had more classes together this year cause even though we have French together this year he sits like two seats behind me and infant tlk to him. Anyways I think that I'm beginning to feel the stress of school and just junior year in general. I mean do people honestly think that a sixteen year old teenager is capable of managing all these things at once? I don't believe that our whole futures should be determined on how we do in one moment of a long lifetime. It's like we only have one chance to do everyhing right and everyone says that there will always be more chances to correct our mistakes but I don't think it's true because here we are working our asses off. And for what? Because time passes by so quickly and there's so much to do and eventully time quickly slips away. Haha I'm just ranting on again. But there's 10 more minutes of class and I wastes ally time writing this lame post xD haha p.s. I'm sick of cheese it's

im going to freaking die tonight!
i didn't finish my apush outline
i'm NOT EVEN CLOSE.
and i had to got to a freaking cif game
but atleast janet was thereeee<333
ahah so i wasn't completely alone (:
uh well now i need to catch up on my hw's
sweet 16 was okay.
wasn't what i imagined few years back
but whatever. aha (:

I'm updating from chemistry right now :) hehe today was pretty fun so far ! Earthquake drill and chemistry labs :)
I miss him a lot :( I get to see him soon though

dude I'm updating from my iPhone :) kay this is freaking awesome!

realize

you can never make something happen if it was never meant to happen in the first place.
you can't change destiny
you can't make someone love you when they don't
you can't make a person a friend if they don't want to
even if it hurts like hell, it'll never happen
just like how you can't make the rain stop once it starts
or move mountains, because it's not possible.
you can only change yourself
when things don't go the way it's planned live with it.
if life is throwing obstacles at you from all directions
dodge them and continue on.
you can't let the little things in life pull you down.
if you continue on head strong you will be able to go through it all.
live life through thick and thin and carry on.

FHDJKFsd!

my mom cut apples for me to eat
and it was really sour.
LOL RANDOM.

no school today :]

today was pretty fun heh (: <3
anyway i'm turning 16 in a few days.
i feel so old haha. so much for "sweet16"
its not like i can drive either!
it kind of feels like it's going to be like
every other birthday
cause nothing really special happens
its not like i get my license, or a car
like those people on mtv! haha! so suckish.
i'm just going to be another year older
i just kind of want to celebrate with friends
but then i don't even know what to do....
plus people are going to fall rally on saturday ):
so yeah.. eeek!

this week!

1110 - Melinda & Lester's Birthday!
Kristen's Birthday Party (:
1111 - Veteran's Day! No School (:
1114 - Out Jerome & Minh & Kristina!


Today was fun <3
spent 3 hours with my babe (:
it went by super fast!
i kept getting super dizzy & sleepy though heh.
i need to go buy melinda's birthday present now (:

Halloween

uh yesterday i was a basketball player.
again. cause i lost parts of my sailor costume
and um yeah LOL. after school & academy,
i went to cristinas house! (: we watched
one missed call & the covenant ? or something HAH
DUDE THAT GUY IS HOT....... (:
uh yeah they weren't really scary at all.
but its okay [: i had fun!