stfuclaraa: (11:12:19 PM) im excited to study
stfuclaraa: (11:12:20 PM) is that weird
stfuclaraa: (11:12:21 PM) HAHA
cristina: (11:12:24 PM) ME TOO
stfuclaraa: (11:12:26 PM) LOOOLOLLL

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you.

.........................ihatethis.

i got the chills..

):

Sometimes I think it might be nice to forget the things I’ve done, but then I realize the future comes because the past exists. We look forward to tomorrow because there are memories. If the past is empty, then the future is just the passing of time. No matter how painful or heavy, always carry your past with you. I am not looking forward to anything in life right now. Just going with the flow and hoping I get hit with something good.

p.s. this is pretty immature, but you bug me SO MUCHHH. ughsdjkfsdl! D:



&Happy 24th birthday Howard + Happy 4th birthday David! :)<3

LAST DAY OF BAND CAMP.
im sososososo excited! =] either that or I'm REALLY hyper.

kaaaays :] :] I'll update about performance and everything laters!! (:

hello sexy :)

THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE..

You've got it wrong if you say our love is gone.
You've got it wrong if you say our love is gone.
Yeah I feel like taking off, let me be your supernova.
Before you make the biggest mistake of your life.
Just give me a chance to get it right. get it right.

ew.. HAHA. I felt like taking an ugly picture today.. I just don't care.


Is there a reason why today can't be different than all the rest? sigh.

dlpotluck? I WISH HYEJIN WAS FEELING BETTER SO IT'D BE LESS AWKWARD.. bleh. ):

whats up with the freaking weather too......

Fck my ear is bleeding. ): See it?
Its cause my studs dug into my skin & when I took it out blood started like gushing out ._.

BABYBOY!

this is for you to read when you wake up even though I don't even know if you read my blog in the morning!
I just wanted to tell you imy&ily first of all! ♥
& GOODMORNING! *hug via blog (: copyrighted clara right?
I hope you have a great last day at work today even though I hope it's not the last day for you.
and uh what else.. OH! I wanted to remind you that I really want my leafs NAAAO :D
or else.. IM IGNORING YOU >:) hehe I'm being the jerk that you are to me!
illiebaby<3 mwah

ps. happy 26 months :]

TOP FIVE ARTISTS. :)

this week hehe.

1. Owl City
2. Rise Against
3. Mat Kearney
4. Mayday Parade
5. The Fray

yay :)

Tehe :] I bought 2 dresses online today! One at charlotte russe & one at urban outfitters! I'm super happy cause I saved so much money =) The one at charlotte russe was $30 and the one at urban outfitters was $46 but I used a promo code & it was onsale so it was only $24 :D Goodnight! :]

"when you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults. you don’t look for answers. you don’t look for mistakes. instead, you fight the mistakes. you accept the faults and you overlook excuses. the measure of love is when you love without measure. there are rare chances that you’ll meet the person you love and who loves you in return. so once you have it, don’t let it go. the chance may never come your way again."

EWwwwfdhsjkfhlsdf. MY DADS LIP IS SO NASTY. he has freakin stitches.. ON HIS LIIPPPP D:

Everyone dies, but not everyone lives. I want to live.

Life isn’t about your shoes, your hair, where you live, or go to school. In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or college. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.

bleh.. bad day bad day bad day bad day...


i'm so vulnerable to you..

I want to be wanted.

Bonne Nuit :)

Babyyyy!

You never told me your cricket story! TELL MEEEE. :)
& this reminded me of you & how you hate crickets :D
not the naked creepy guy part though! :)

My Natural Highs :)

Falling in love.
Laughing so hard my cheeks hurt.
No lines at Wal-Mart.
Getting mail!
Towels out of the dryer
Clothes on sale!
Giggling.
A good conversation.
The beach.
Finding Money.
Laughing at myself.
Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
Running through sprinklers.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Laughing at an inside joke.
Friends.
Compliments.
Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
First kiss.
Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
Having someone play with my hair.
Sweet dreams.
Swinging on swings.
Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch.
Riding a bike downhill.
Winning a really competitive game.
Making chocolate chip cookies.
Making others smile and laugh.
Holding hands with someone.
Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
Hugging someone I love.
Watching a sunrise.
Sunny mornings & beautiful days!

Illieee. :)

It's funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love, while at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.

Craaazy night. I can't believe I did that. lol.

I feel lonely. Almost to the point of tears. But I'm not supposed to cry.

Good afternoon lovelies =)

BLOWFISHBOOTIEEEES :)

hfjksldhfk.. ]:

i wish i had someone to talk to right now /:

probably not gunna sleep for awhile tonight..

Every time I say fuck my life, I look at pictures of sad things, like poverty, war, orphans, broken families. It always makes me feel blessed that I don’t have to go through that & regretful that I’m complaining. I’m sorry :(

I've been waiting for a chance to let you in..

dshfkjsdf. I feel so depressed again..

"Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, ‘cause indifference hurts more then angry words."

The worst is when you can't even find a reason for your unhappiness.

Hello Seattle, I miss you! :)

CUTEST CD CASE EVER! :) I want it.

love is :)

It’s not about being the cutest couple anywhere.
It’s not about the amount of attention we get from our friends.
It’s not about how many comments we get on pictures on facebook or myspace.
It’s not about the whole world knowing.
It’s not about having everything in common.
It’s not about the sex.
It’s not about seeing each other all of the time.
It’s not about saying “i love you” all of the time.
It’s not about the jealousy or the greed.

It’s about our connection & how our souls intertwine.
It’s about how we face the world every day as ordinary people.
It’s about trusting that everything is going to end up okay somehow.
It’s about finding ourselves within each other.
It’s about believing in one another.
It’s about constant communication vocally & indirectly.
It’s about understanding without needing evidential proof.
It’s about laughing.
It’s about crying.
It’s about gentle care.
It’s about honesty.
It’s about patience.
It’s about learning.
& growing.
& knowing.
& feeling.
& being out of breath.
& your heart racing.
& your stomach floating.
& your feet flying off of the ground.
& never getting tired of it, because at the end of the day
… it’s all worth it.

Life is a Beautiful Struggle. <3

You're cute & you make my day :)
illie!<33

Kindabummedout. ):

Goodnight.<3

Wherever you will go - The Calling! :)

“love. easy word to spell. easy word to say. most people throw around the word “love” like it’s nothing. but it’s definitely something. it’s that “i can live without you, i just don’t want to” kind of feeling that you get when you see that special someone. it’s more than romance, more than the exchange of sweet words. it’s the feeling of holding hands, soft kisses on the cheek, knowing that no matter what you’re going through in life, no matter how you’re feeling, that special someone will always be there to brighten your day, to know how to make you smile in their own special way. don’t throw the word love around like it’s nothing, because it’s everything. never tell someone you love them when you don’t. wait for that special someone, the one person that makes love what it is.”

BANDCAMP DAY 1

I HATE BANDCAMP. It's pointless.. pit doesn't do anything anyway. ): I saw babe today! Only for an hour but still!<3 Best part of my day right there! hehe :) Wells, I'm exhausted. D: Kathy called me in to go to work today so I'm here at work. Danny isn't even here right now so I will go read my book & magazine :)

I heard this song on a commercial today & I got re-addicted :)
Michelle Branch - Everywhere!

Baby, just being with you makes me really happy. :)
I'm going to miss you a lot this week & next week! ):


Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I'm feeling kind of down lately...

I think UGGS are really ugly & expensive too.

I wondered why this was black at some parts. :)

Its almost 2 ._.

I has a family bbq today.

stfuclaraa: (2:32:57 AM) but i love you too shithead :]
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:00 AM) HAAHAH
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:03 AM) poopie face >:]
stfuclaraa: (2:33:06 AM) go fuckign sleep you dumbass!
stfuclaraa: (2:33:07 AM) [:
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:13 AM) same to you assface!
stfuclaraa: (2:33:17 AM) i'll talk to you in the morning pooopiehead [:
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:21 AM) goodnight dickwad
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:22 AM) HAHA
stfuclaraa: (2:33:30 AM) GOODNIGHT fucker
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:35 AM) BYE BITCH
stfuclaraa: (2:33:40 AM) BYE ASSHOLE.
teh tArN aGe: (2:33:42 AM) HAHAHAH
stfuclaraa: (2:33:42 AM) BYE DOUCHEBAG
stfuclaraa: (2:34:44 AM) i love you.. MORONNNNN.
teh tArN aGe: (2:34:46 AM) kk goodnight fartfice
teh tArN aGe: (2:34:49 AM) I LOVE YOU TOO IDIOT
stfuclaraa: (2:34:57 AM) RETARD.
stfuclaraa: (2:34:58 AM) GO AWAY


HAHA I LOVE YOU BABY :]<3

For you,

"So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. you do the things you used to be against, you date the people you thought you never would and you befriend the people you used to hate. you’ll learn what it’s like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend who truly meant something to you and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. there will be times when your life seems absolutely horrible, it feels like it’s not real. despite all this, good things will come too. you’ll make the most amazing friends who will be there for you when they probably shouldn’t be. your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you’ve ever met and as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. there will be days you are so happy and days you feel like dying. drama happens, gossip goes around and people talk shit. maybe this is just the teenage years, maybe it’s life or maybe this is just what growing up is."

These past days..

have been THE BEST! :)

Thursday was my last day of Psychology! :) In the morning, babe came over to help me study. LOL. He did not help me study. BUT, I had fun & I eventually did finish my two page summary & studying WITHOUT the help of him! :) I ate a 3x3 & french fries that day! :) When I went to class, we played this one game where we chose the smartest people in the class to answer questions from our final. Some guy chose me after he was chosen. I shouldn't have asked him about extra credit the day before cause I think I was the only person he talked to in the class before. D: Well I got it the question right! (: After, we took the final which was freakin eaaasy! :) What kinda question is "If I were you, I would chose C." heheh. I finished at 4 & went to Chris's house but then I had to leave because Cristina called me ): Me & Jessica rushed over there like crazy! hehe after, her & jessica went off to guppies & the mall & I just went back to Chris's house & played games with everybody! :) That was really fun! At night, I went to Towncenter & saw Patrick & Steven at Borders :D That was pretty interesting cause I haven't seen them in so long!

Friday, Jeffrey & I went out for Lunch. :) We kind of snuck out in my car & I ate at Albertacos for the first time ever. :) We bought California Burritos? & Carne Alsada fries for Cristina. Babe, you're a good driver :D HAHA. I hire you to be my driver! Anyway, we dropped my cookies & the fries off at her house & jeff & me ate our burritos at Heritage park bench while reading this crazy aim conversation! (: It was really fun though! Jeffrey you're crazy, hot sauce on EVERY SINGLE BITE! hehe, After, he drove me back & we stopped at Gonsalves & I got to drive and learn how to park HAHAHA. What a fail. fail. fail. fail. fail. x10000. I almost killed us kinda. (: HAHA. That was so funny. Poor car. LOL. We both lost like 30 years off our lives that day. Or maybe just me. But I know you were atleast a little scared right Jeff? :) It took me forever to park in my garage HAHA. You gotta love my driving. :) Love you babe!

Saturday, I went to pick up Jeff & he drove us to It's a grind! :] after, we came back to my house & waited for everyone else to come over. I was so tired today. /: Melinda came over first & we were bored waiting for other people so we started drawing all over my drive way with chalk :D hehe we drew the whole tablecrew♥ and everything else! It was really hot outside but yeah hehe. After Jessica & Cristina showed up, we all went to Regional Park & vandalized a tree. LOL, with my dad's screw driver :] & we went to Target & CPE. Today was just a really lazy day in general x) We kinda just sat at my house & did nothing. I love my couch.<3 At night, I made kabobthingys. (: They look really good. I realized I haven't really eaten all day.

That's all. Toodles everyone! :)

THIS SUMMER...

I want to go to

Original Pancake House
Old Spaghetti Factory
BJ's
The Original Fish Company
Roscoe's House of Chicken & Waffles
Tommy's Original World's Famous

lets go baby!!! [:

Today was great =)

More about it in the morning cause I'm so sleepy (:

teh tArN aGe: (1:19:52 PM) heres some love for ya
teh tArN aGe: (1:19:55 PM) i really need to fart
teh tArN aGe: (1:19:56 PM) HAHAH
teh tArN aGe: (1:19:56 PM) kk
stfuclaraa: (1:19:57 PM) HAHAHAHAH
teh tArN aGe: (1:19:57 PM) bye!
stfuclaraa: (1:19:59 PM) BYE ;]

psh you think you're cute. AHHAHA =]

I like reading blogs but I hate how everybody twitters, and everybody blogs, but no one is really saying anything, they just copy paste it all. That’s how one person’s opinion becomes everybody else's thoughts. They all become blind, & you know what they say "when the blind lead the blind, then everyone get’s lost."

My parents really miss their Lexus. /: They traded it in for my Honda. I feel horrible. I promise myself I will buy them a Lexus in the future. This is one I won't break. I love my parents. They give up things they love for me.<3

Kaitlyn: If our lives are predestined, then whoever planned out mine sucks. I sure do spend a lot of my time doing absolutely nothing.

I AGREEEEEEE.

What does heartbreak mean to you?

how amazing is this..

]:

I realized when you care for someone, you can't be fully happy, right? I mean when you care for someone, if they aren't happy, you won't be either. So what's the solution, would you just leave? But then it'd hurt too much to leave cause you care. It's an endless cycle.

Never apologize for saying what you feel, because that's like saying sorry for being real.

EVERYTHING - MARQUES HOUSTON ♥
i love this song :)

I'm watching hercules right now -_- HAHA
I am so bored.

I love watching the old seasons of One Tree Hill! :) What happened!?!!!

If it weren't for cnn.com, I'd be SO bored.

On Repeat: SO COLD - STEVIE HOANG <33333

GOODMORNING!♥

MY BANGSSS!!! >:[ ahah! grumpy morning :]

AWWWW.

that's so cute :] Marc Jacobs Mouse Flats.

Goooodmorning World! :)♥

This week will be fun <3

-Dragonauts Banquet #2 :]
-500 Days of Summer!
-Sunshine Preschool
-Shirt Making
-Corn&Ham Pizza making
-Last day of school!

I miss Dragonauts. D:

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize that all along you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.

wtf man. it ripped in half.
yes. that is a bra. LMAO.

RANDOM THOUGHT #2

Alot has been on my mind lately. I decided that emptying my mind would do me some good. 2009 has been a year where I've grown so much. My maturation level is up a few notches and my range of acceptance expanded a few miles. I can honestly say I’m proud of where I stand today, but the climb it took to get here was one hell of a route. I passed many break downs along with the love from others before arriving here. There were irritating, occasional ”confusion road blocks” that slowed me down, but I managed to make my way through it. It’s a little past half way through the year and I’ve already come up with a “What I’ve Learned” list. Here it goes. (:

Things I’ve Learned Since January 1, 2009.

1. Falling in love is amazing and rewarding when done right. You can fall in love and still not be blinded by it.

2. Take into consideration ALL perspectives before coming to your own conclusions.

3. Don't lie to yourself. Why is it so hard to tell the truth to yourself? Just say what you want to do and go. It holds you back from making progress.

4. Stress is unnecessary and just extra weight to carry.

5. Keep busy, make the most of the time you’re given. Make each and every second count.

6. Never leave someone without a proper goodbye.

7. Learn to forgive and let go. (:

8. Everyone is different.

9. Never give up & do whatever you can in whatever you do.

10. People need time for themselves, to be able to sit in silence, reflect, & enjoy peacefulness. :]

11. Review consequences before making decisions. Weigh out the good and the bad.

12. Save money.

13. Accept your body & yourself, therefore, others can learn to accept you too.

14. Read all you can!

15. End each day stronger and smarter than you were when it started. Better yourself each day that goes by.

16. Move forward. Don’t live in the past.

17. Reach out to other groups. Inform yourself with every kind of person there is out there. Understand others to eliminate confusion, hate, and segregation.

18. Each moment that you’re alive is another opportunity to better yourself & others.

19. Compliments should float around more often :] It makes everybody happier

20. Idle friendships are not bad. The real ones are the ones you can put on pause for while, and when you’re able to start again… nothing changed.

21. Simplicity always.

22. Everything you do matters & counts.

23. Never wait until it's too late to realize what's important to you

24. Don't allow yourself to be come so angry that you forget the important things.

25. Live outside your comfort zone, that way, you'll be able to discover new things about yourself.

Jeans & Skirts addiction.

I wanna freaking cheeseburger! :D

Yes - LMFAO.

Come Back To Me - David Cook (:

Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Take your time i wont go anywhere

You know you really love someone when you don't hate them for breaking your heart.

Baby Spam :]

Anberlin - Reclusion :]

I HATE WAKING UP EARLY TO STUDY! WHO DOES THAT D: hehe

Amazingamazing. :]

"Everyone’s afraid of something, that’s how you know you care about things, when you’re afraid you’ll lose them."

Making Spam Musubi is SO BOMB! =)

"I'd give you my everything if you gave me yours. I know we tried this a few times, but that was before. I'm ready if you're read, and I'm pretty sure I am. I'm waiting here for you, but I don't know how long I can."

My parents want to buy me a 2009 Honda Civic cause they're scared that if they buy me a car that's too nice, I'll wreck it. I'm so down to get a Civic! <3 My dream car is always an M3 or 2009 IS250 though.

GPOYW :]

oh freak LMAO. my heart is pounding like 379830273975 beats per second. So I was just sitting in my living room & like someone tries to open my front door & i'm like SHIT aha! so like i shut off everything and i went to the door and i looked out the window & my garage door was open so i ran to the phone and i'm like holding it and so I opened the door and ran to my garage but no one was in there so I was gunna run back in my house but then.. I saw my uncle & that scared the shit outta me AHHAHA. Apparently my dad told him to come over and wait. whoo. I'm still all jittery & shakey x)

RANDOM THOUGHT #1

Misunderstanding seems to be a common barrier between us all. What society doesn’t get is that people are who they are because of events that happen to them. Those people you complain about, whether it’s how they stared at you, how they dress, how they talk, how they act. There’s a reason behind it all. People hurt, and sometimes they take it out on those that did nothing to them. Next time we have something bad to say about someone, we have to think about what happened to them to make them act that way in the first place. I think we need to understand the needs of others. We need to understand the pain of others. People are crying out for help everywhere, some do it secretly, some disguise it. But everyone needs help. We shouldn't make people feel like they don’t belong won’t help either. We have to learn how to accept who they are & what they do. We have to learn to approach them & offer a helping hand. If we’re strong enough to stand on our two feet, we have to help up those who are crawling through life on their knees. I mean, it shouldn’t hurt you too much, since you have alot of that gift to share anyway. It’s so easy to sit back, complain & laugh about someone when they’re doing something out of the ordinary, but what’s going on on their side of the story is so much harder than what you have to do. I think everyone should do whatever they can to make it the least bit easier on that person. They’ll be grateful, even if they don’t show it. No one should be able to carry the world’s weight on their shoulders on their own.

I hope this makes you think. (:

Lovelove.

ilovetumblrbloggers. :]
i♥formspring.

idk how to get the ugly gray borders off D: hehe.

Today, I went swimming with Janet, Chris, Jeffrey, & Lester! :] It was actually really fun hehe. The guys and their homo-ness. Don't deny it! I had fun chasing lester around with Janet even if it was really cold. After, we all went to Chris's house & ate pizza and awesome pasta! Chris knows how to cook awesome pasta! haha (: We watched Wizards of Waverly place for like an hour & we played NBA live. ME & JANET PLAY SMART, we don't cheat. :] hehe. We owned the guys, girls are so much better. <3

Goodnightloves. (:

Thankful. ♥

It was you that showed me who I am, and taught me how to stand for what I know is real. Now I’m breathing for the first time and I’m leaving all this behind. I’ve become what I am because of you. It was you.

Our days would be happier if we gave people a little bit of our hearts rather than a piece of our minds. :]



Damned if I do ya, Damned if I dont - All time low!

I want to be strong enough not to NEED you in my life. I want to be independent enough to not rely my all happiness on you. Funny how I told many this, yet I failed to follow my own advice. It sucks how I revolved everything around you, and once it’s gone my whole world comes crashing down. I love you, but I’m trying to tell myself that I don’t need you. I WANT you in my life, there’s a difference. I don’t need to be in relationship. It’s only a choice. I know you still love me too but apparently we got really comfortable with the way things were. We’ve gone through too much shit to let this break us. So, go do your own thing for a while and I’ll do mine. We’ll see where we end up..

My haircut. I had to force my bangs to one side, It's kind of all across my forehead but slanted to one side right now. It's pretty weird looking at the moment, but not in the picture, I'm hoping it'll go back to normal later. (: I like how it's really a lot thinner now, though except I kinda wanted thicker bangs, but it's alright. :) I'm craving bagels with cream cheese ._. Thanks Janet & Lester..... YOU GUYS GOT ME ADDICTED. HAHA :]

Off to get my hair cut now.

since you guys don't read this, I fucking hate you Jerome & Minh.
You guys were never my friends if you guys can get pissed at me for something like THAT.

I lost you. I lost the only thing that ever really mattered to me. I loved you with all my heart… but I guess that wasn’t enough.

haha today was my driving class. The teacher kept telling me to slow down and break, I was like HUH? but then I realized I was going 55mph near the mall. I think I scared my teacher a lot. He kept telling me to accelerate gently but like everytime I did it was like VROOM kinda thing. I almost ran 2 red lights also....... teheheh. Who wants to be in my car? After we went to pick up his next student and It was this dude and he had to sit in the back seat until I drove all the way back to my house. I felt sorry for him too. I can't drive slowly.


Dear you,

My walls aren’t holding up the way they used to. I can’t even hold my tears in anymore. I feel so insignificant and so alone. Though most of the time, you’ll see me and I’ll smile. I’ll laugh. I amnot pretending to be happy. I smile because in that moment I am the happiest person on Earth. Just knowing someone like you is in my life means the world to me. But when you’re not around, I don’t have anyone else but myself and my thoughts. I can’t help but think about how I let everything slip by me without a second glance. I never fought back. I never tried. Everything that ever happened has always been and always will be my fault. Now I’m standing out here on a ledge trying to decide if I want to jump or not. I’m leaning over the edge; you’re the one who is keeping me from falling. Thank you.

-Me.

Don’t let yourself get so angry that you stop loving, because one day, you will wake up from that anger and the person you love will be gone.

story of my life...

I finished watching Penelope today cause everyone at Rochelle's carb party thing said it was a good movie. It's really cute actually =) So I'll elaborate more on the race. Woke up freakishly early although I didn't really get enough sleep. Got to school just on time & sat with Lester in a random car cause we're rejects like that & everyone hates us! ): Got to Long Beach super early & did some illegal driving HAHA. We went through this gate that we weren't supposed to go through cause it's an exit & I guess no one saw or they were too slow to stop us, but we got awesome parking. I was planning to sleep but obviously couldn't cause there was so much energy there haha! I walked around & saw all the different teams & the little stores and what not :] After I walked with Janet cause she had her buy one get one free coupons for Jamba Juice. Good thing we didn't get lost! Hooray for discovering shortcuts & almost getting runover twice. Yes I consider the taxi almost getting run over. =) But yeah we went to Albertsons cause I had a rice krispies craving. I was kinda sad for a bit cause I realized I didn't get to race for the first two & It kind of made it worse that I thought there were six races although there were only four. The races I did get to race in were Mixed & Rookie! :] I'm pretty proud of myself! I paddled Right hand & Left hand! Even though I didn't think I could do it, I pretty much tried freaking really hard & paddled my freaking brains out for the team. :] & It totally paid off to get second place in both of them although we got a penalty in the first race -2seconds which placed us in fifth. But you know, we know what we should have gotten & we did so freaking good in that race that I don't even care, so eff the two second penalty. =)

Today was Dragonboat race.. It was really great actually. I had a lot of fun too.


You guys know how to ruin someones day. wtf..

]: I have a lot on my mind.
It is not a good night to not be able to sleep. I needa get up in 4 hours.. & I'm probably not gunna sleep any time soon cause I'm freaking wide awake!! I guess I'm feeling pretty nostalgic.. & I hope this will all subside. I feel like I'm hurting more than I can handle but I guess I kinda have to just wait until it goes away on its own cause there aren't really any solutions & no easy ways out. I can't out run it. It's pretty ironic. As soon as I feel alone/am alone, it seems like the rest of the world is in love.

"Never say goodbye.
because goodbye means going away,
and going away means forgetting."
Peter Pan.